House

Sundown Valentine

2011-04-05T00:06:00.005+08:00

In actual fact, I do not feel too differently from you.

I want to cry as well,

at the impending loss of a person

whom you were a part of.

Whom I feel close to but hardly know,

whom I dreamt of holding my hand.

But that's not what I am supposed to do.

I will be leaving you to your matters,

while I take into my own hands, our matters.

It's not that I do not want to make you smile,

it's certainly not because I don't care.

I just feel like both of us should,

like for any other times,

make our way through with focus & comprehension,

without any distractions.

So as to gain meaning, you say.

2011-03-31T13:35:00.001+08:00

One of my uncle just passed away. It is unfortunate.

His boy is barely speaking yet.

2011-03-31T13:30:00.004+08:00

嘿。我回來了。(SW)

2011-03-31T13:19:00.007+08:00

Poster Design is very important

2010-12-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

知己不一定知彼

這麽久沒有上部落格，

幾個月的時間過得可真快。

忙忙忙，轉眼又是冬季。

我後天就會隨著幾個月前的自己，

去認識以後的自己。

明年回家，我會認得我嗎？

你呢？

A new kind of happy

2010-08-03T15:40:00.001+08:00

Yay Kai Zhe 1 month liao

2010-06-19T22:21:00.002+08:00

2010-06-18T01:34:00.002+08:00

On Childhood:

這三個星期的體驗與過程，讓我深深地感覺到，

有像我那樣的童年其實已經很幸福了。

Neoprint, Lin Brothers, Undated

2010-05-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

2010-05-13T01:57:00.001+08:00

On sleeping:

You actually move constantly.

Edison,

35mm

2010-05-13T00:52:00.001+08:00

2010-04-29T22:48:00.008+08:00

A gallery of conception process:

2010-04-29T13:36:00.004+08:00

On HOT!'s impending release:

I am presenting my past works to mark the end of school!

2010-04-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

too much things in the world is overrated.

the winner is love and continuity editing.

2010-04-05T23:36:00.005+08:00

On birthday and post birthday:

29-3

以爲簡簡單單地過，

但是好友 (Ke Xin, Weyman & Jovan) 晚上買了綠茶，炸雞套餐和巨無霸點火機

然後就到的草埔屋頂玩吉他。

30-3

然後隔天，我的好同學 (Qidi, who also birthdayed 3 days before) 買了小片蛋糕，

唱歌給我聼。

而且晚上，軍隊摯友 (my bro Michael) 還特地跑下來，

送我一個超大蛋糕和祝福。

03-4

Rojak is dinner/supper during first night of Eileen's shoot.

04-4

Qidi is sitting on top of the table to absorb light (吃光) on Eileen's set.

一整個星期在學校趕功課。能收到大家的祝福，真的是謝謝。

Thank you.

2010-03-25T02:11:00.001+08:00

Reaching a new low:

2010-03-23T14:13:00.003+08:00

On Working Title: At Last, The Songs / 插曲

我想到了一個新的故事題材。

關於的是我的從前和可能實現的未來。

感人嗎？應該會。

這會是一個簡單順序的故事。

可是一切的一切是不可能簡單順序的。

因為人是故事的主角。

人是很複雜的生物。

而面臨此複雜心態時，

往往都只懂得退步，不面對。

有一幕，男主角看著他心愛的人熟睡。

如果他們不相愛，

那我就會讓男主角睡后永遠不醒來。

因為愛而不被愛是比死來得更悲哀。

不幸的，他每天都會被比真實還真實

的夢驚醒。

最後男主角會以為他失去了一切，

其實相反地，一切都再次歸於他。

他在戲裡當然是永遠不會知道。

這就是無知輿人生交錯的美麗，

也是抓空希望的身亡墜落。

2010-03-11T16:25:00.002+08:00

On Knowing Oneself:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you, realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken. (Personality Test Result)

duh.

2010-02-28T01:09:00.005+08:00

心篇。第二。

The Hours drag on but

其實我想要的很簡單。

也只不過是人人都有，

而不多顧慮的一些生活點滴。

但是掙扎是過程，

門票我可付不起，

餘力的苦澀，我喝不下。

就放棄吧。

我就靜坐，握著心臟，

看他停息，腐爛，變坏。

多吸一口氣也只不過是

毒死自己。

停頓的是一個接一個的鐘頭，

飛奔的是一月接一月的什麽。

2010-02-27T02:21:00.001+08:00

On Ke Xin:

Honestly, you need a new phone.

2010-02-27T02:06:00.001+08:00

有什麽比他們愛我？

2010-02-14T22:04:00.004+08:00

On Saywei + Carlene's Engagement:

原來找到依靠的感覺是幸福，

而幸福交錯的眼神

就是愛。

2010-02-11T02:22:00.002+08:00

On Advanced Drawing and/or Life:

Its all about erasing the blacks to reveal the light.

Something about today is strangely

liberating.

2010-02-02T01:08:00.000+08:00

shomei tomatsu

2010-01-29T18:02:00.008+08:00

HOT! Shoot at NIE Pool:

1. Cher Kun

2. Desmond

3. Guorong

4. Jeannie

5. Yu Xian

6. Wyna

7. Ke Xin (Small)

8. AMIN

Thank you all so much!

2010-01-29T03:18:00.002+08:00

Day and Night:

So far, all I have been trying to do is to

stop myself from recovering

from the state I got myself into.

2010-01-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

This Hour:

1. I wanted to scan people's faces as a photo series

2. Man in a Snow Globe just screened today at The Singapore Short Film Awards (Not In Competition). It is screening again coming Monday for First Takes (Feb), alongside 4 other films of which 3, are friends'. It is more significant to me that, this said film is my first PG film. Remarkable for a fucked-up like me.

3. Really keen on the Art Therapy at SGH. But what do I have to offer?

2010-01-22T13:16:00.007+08:00

心篇。第一。

看得懂嗎？這塵埃堆疊呼應的層次。

美感是肉眼的錯覺。

大小是距離的交代。

放棄堅持，可能有如同畫一般，

是一起美麗的意外。

想要的一橫，下筆的一橫，

兩者之間具有渺小的偏差，

最終的畫卻默默背負著

龐大，無盡的傷害。

表面上看起來則別來無恙。

2010-01-20T23:09:00.001+08:00

On HOT!:

1. Anderson

2. People who believes in me

In retrospect, what the fuck am I trying to do?

2010-01-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

From the final day of Three Days Grace set:

I saw the sundown literally.

How the hues of the sunlight changes rapidly from orange to pinkish

and then going darker and darker. It was quite breathtaking to see

this in Singapore.

While I stood in awe, taking in the natural phenomenon of the painterly sky,

it suddenly struck me that I should take a picture.

I wanted to share the beauty of this sight with someone, anyone.

But obviously I was too late in doing so.

I am always too late.

2010-01-20T22:33:00.005+08:00

I took this picture sometime in Oct or Nov 09.

This picture shows branches that is being raised up towards the sun

being fed and held proudly by the main trunk that is perpetually supporting all these branches.

The branches grow rich and glorious.

I, too, wanna dedicate this picture to Michael's Dad and my Grandma.

2010-01-20T22:27:00.003+08:00

After 2009 ended, I noticed for the first time.

My cactus grew.

2010-01-08T19:39:00.004+08:00

From last year to this One

1. Shoot: Remember 27 to 30 Dec 2009

2. NYE 31 Dec 2009 to 1 Jan 2010

3. Shoot: 3 Days Grace 2 to 7 Jan 2010

2009-11-29T22:09:00.001+08:00

being testy

2009-11-18T11:18:00.001+08:00

Drama Class is fun.

2009-11-15T12:11:00.002+08:00

The Finger Players presents:

CAT, Lost & Found

3-5 December 2009, Drama Centre Black Box

Tickets from SISTIC

2009-11-06T10:57:00.004+08:00

2009-10-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

Yay

2009-10-23T23:13:00.001+08:00

How To Find ... *Sweat*

2009-10-18T14:50:00.010+08:00

Still from A Spurt Of Blood

年末篇。第四。

他們倆在沒有他的後期間，

還算是很健康地在長大。

身後的，只能望著他慢慢墜落。

向著光奔馳也許是很自然的行爲。

縂不能呆在黑暗中摸索，

相信一些可能不存在的諾言。

只怕太靠近，

光會把人弄盲。

不待在彼岸，

反而是這一生最大的後悔。

年末篇。第五。

是時候

反個方向看一看

2009-10-18T02:52:00.002+08:00

Very Nice Things. 最近聼不停。

Tanya Chua - 若你碰到他

反而沒有比春。日光耐聼。

Shiina Ringo - 三文ゴシップ

出乎意料的好聼。

潘裕文 / 聼了很舒服的一張專輯。

2009-10-18T02:47:00.000+08:00

今年至今最賣座的臺灣電影。

2009-10-18T02:28:00.000+08:00

Salvador Dali - The Great Masturbator

2009-10-18T02:25:00.001+08:00

2009-10-18T02:05:00.003+08:00

Storyboard for The Red Shoes

生氣地把自己吃了。/

chewing on oneself in a moment of self loathe

2009-10-18T01:41:00.001+08:00

Matt hangs up the phone. He squats down with his mobile phone in his hand and lights a cigarette. As he smokes, he is drawing on the floor with his fingers, creating figures we cannot see. An ant crawls along his path. Matt takes his cigarette and holds the flame near the ant, causing the ant to fluster. He attempts to burn the ant a couple more times but he lets it go eventually.

Matt extinguishes his cigarettes and stands up. He unzips his windbreaker and walks back into the house. His packet of cigarette is left behind, and we see vaguely, a human figure formed by dusts on the floor.

2009-10-18T01:26:00.001+08:00

昨天是十月十七日。昨天我和這個沒兩樣。

2009-10-18T01:24:00.000+08:00

After a while, one's gotta love Marcel Duchamp.

2009-10-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

Eagerly anticipates this new DVD to arrive:

Tsui Hark's 1995 epic remake of 'The One-Armed Swordsman (1970s)'

割愛。

2009-09-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

2009-09-21T00:50:00.004+08:00

短片[ 熱！]

Short Film 'HOT!'

2009-09-15T18:14:00.004+08:00

Drawing of Trips by Nick Li

年末篇。第三。

什麽都看不見的。

這麽多字，這麽多見解，

這麽多的幻想，

都重疊在那麽小的空間裏。

整個英國的地理風情，

也只不過是

兩斤重，兩毫米厚，十尺寬的實在。

整個世界的美術歷史，

也大不過每晚陪你入睡的枕頭。

一個人的心事，也相對的，

不比一顆心臟大。

只是往往，

我們不敢承認我們是

多麽的小。

2009-09-15T01:24:00.004+08:00

EXT. POOL. DAY.

A 4x3 ratio camera image is shown. On it, a woman was standing against the backdrop of the pool where the incident had just taken place. She is answering questions about the incident, facing the camera.

INTERVIEWEE 01

He was just sitting alone at the bar. I saw him just now … and he seemed a little disturbed. I don’t know.

INTERVIEWEE 01

(cont’d)

Oh next question? Do I know him? I’ve seen him around. Yea… I think he has seen me around too. I figure…

CUT TO: Another interview footage involving a couple.

MALE INTERVIEWEE 02

He was walking around, behind there. That was about 3pm because I remembered I just reached the party to look for my fiancée.

FEMALE INTERVIEWEE 02

That’s right. Previously I did not recall seeing him or any suspicious characters for that matter.

(pause)

It’s very traumatic for us to witness this. I think I can speak for everyone on this…

I'm so sore

2009-09-15T01:21:00.001+08:00

Since I scanned,

might as well.

2009-09-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

我站後面。/ I stand behind.

2009-09-14T23:01:00.003+08:00

兩百位幸運兒。還是三百呢？

2009-09-14T22:31:00.004+08:00

I've been writing HOT! for the past week

& I can't help recalling the time when I first met Kelvin

at Starbucks to discuss about Man in a Snow Globe.

His investment into my film(s) has always been beyond dedication.

His participation, a kind of fortune.

His transformation, always delightful to witness.

Guess when he comes back, older and absolutely more charming,

he might still remember working with me,

and the secrets of his own life, of which he has channelled

givingly, into the personas I wrote out of my own secrets.

Take care in Amsterdam, watch the liquor intake.

pictures taken by lin weidong on 35mm,

after a photoshoot at ubi

2009-09-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

middle.

2009-09-08T15:49:00.003+08:00

Too Far ... North | 隔海。零距離。

For those who took us away and those we brought home with us.
把 2000 公里化爲虛無的知己。

A Travelogue | 旅行回憶錄

in Mandarin with no subtitles

2009-09-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

After about 9 months of gameplay on my PSP,

affectionately known as 小毛,

I have finally completed this game on the train home

just now.

I must have looked like I had spasms when I was fighting the last battle.

Anyway, I'm sad about how the game ended, too emotional.

But I now know what being a hero means.

Mmmm....

mmmm........

Congratulate me.

please?

2009-08-30T01:02:00.002+08:00

01. 折射之交響 /

想到哪裏就去哪裏。

2009-08-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry I killed you. / 對不起，你的命敗在我手裏。

2009-08-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

|有東西下筆時，自然會下筆。|

2009-08-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

Jeff at Bedok Hawker Centre with us.

一個很不真實的真實。

2009-08-18T17:40:00.003+08:00

end ----------- august

要拍新的宣傳照。有人想擺pose嗎？

New Publicity Shots for the film. Anyone?

2009-08-18T16:53:00.003+08:00

年末篇。第一。

儘管人，物，事無法抵擋成熟的進攻，

時間總是會把機會留給沉睡著的靈魂。

一天一天，它無影無形的吸取人生的豪邁，

敢愛的執著，不變的愚笨。

只等著那麽一天，

當揮之不去的累贅

漸漸的沉溺于生命的海浪時，

當污垢沾染不堪的肉體

漸漸的退色枯萎時，

這靈魂會隨著我們死去的軀殼而復活，

為我們一生洗不掉的後悔

而後悔。

年末篇。第二。

一個人。一口氣。

也只不過能說幾個我愛你罷了。

有些話不浪費的說出口，

是很浪費的。

2009-08-18T16:50:00.002+08:00

生日會。Birthday Club。

原來這位小姐不小了。/ This lady ain't no longer a girl.

2009-08-18T16:48:00.001+08:00

全球首映。就在這裡。

2009-08-10T12:08:00.002+08:00

國慶日。/ Country Celebrates Day!

有煙火，小白船，歌舞戯。可是

Fireworks, little white floating boats, songs and dances. / But

2009-08-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

The Show is Today!

2009-08-01T01:35:00.006+08:00

++No Image++

新篇。第四。

新篇停筆了。
幾乎每天都為彼此操心。
為生活的分隔，假裝不在乎。
幾乎是自動的。
會不時把你懸挂腦中，
渴望每次把千里，潛移默化般的
化爲零距離。

幾乎不曾忘過
那時每一分每一秒，
那笑過的冷語，那哭過的淚痕。
現在如果你會開心，
天就會藍，浮雲會飛，
心中會寬暢。

幾乎不能解釋，
這難過的微笑，
這種釋懷的心情，
繞過原點的一圈一圈。

新篇。第五。

還是
貼心般的照顧那三個仙人掌。
還是
怕水澆太多反而會死掉。

2009-07-31T11:54:00.004+08:00

新篇。第三。

我總是被你的不存在，

提醒著你的不存在。

微風會不會穿越茫然大海，

把我帶到你那兒？

最近聽説，風把她從我們這裡帶走了。

最近知道，風讓他從這裡解脫了。

我希望帶我走的那陣微風，

會有雨后的潮濕，日出的溫暖。

我希望我走的那時候，

你們會感覺到那微風中圍繞著你們，

呵護著你們，永不停歇的塵埃。

2009-07-31T10:35:00.003+08:00

One.

The film has been selected to screen at the Vancouver Singapore Film Festival 2009.

It will be the film's World Premiere.

vsff.org

Two.

The DVD is done. Cast and Crew just sit back and relax, it will come to you.

Anybody else interested to have a copy can email/call me.

2009-07-31T10:29:00.002+08:00

Errol's 21st Birthday -

We went back there just 2 days later for DVD Night
Trying to catch a signal -
Eventually I caught something else

A candy floss after Bondage's rehearsals -

If only everyday was like this

2009-07-19T17:22:00.004+08:00

DVD - End July

Includes Main Film + Deleted Scenes

Extras: Video Conference with Doctor Ken +

The Images of Julianna + Stills & Poster Galleries

Additional Materials:

Selected Works from 2008/2009 including

1. Music Videos

2. Trailers

3. Short Films

4. Photography

For internal distribution.

2009-07-19T16:36:00.002+08:00

隨意詩人。

在樓上抽煙的地方。

抽煙地方往上看的地方。

2009-07-18T02:46:00.002+08:00

宵夜。讓失眠的時間短些。

Supper is the excuse to overlook insomnia.

2009-07-17T02:46:00.000+08:00

2009-07-17T01:25:00.002+08:00

新篇 -第一。

也許是沒有勇氣近看。

距離可能因此變成了最扎實的保護。

保護著彼此的無解，彼此的無言，

彼此的矜持。

等待時間，靜靜的過，

給我們機會。

同時也讓眼神，體溫，心跳，

重獲時間欠他們的機會。

新篇 - 第二。

分心了。做什麽都不專心。

看不清楚，聼不明白。

很機車。

心分了。失眠。思念。

做什麽都不專心。

看不清楚，聼不明白。

很春天。

2009-07-16T19:49:00.002+08:00

This film is so fucking good.

I cried.

Joan Chen's 'Xiu Xiu The Sent-Down Girl'. (1998)

Thanks Jeff :) for both the dvd and ost

2009-07-16T10:14:00.002+08:00

上身不由己：“開工咯”

Written by Cheow Boon Seng 邹文森
Directed by Danny Yeo 杨君伟

Do you know the Goddess of Mercy? Have you ever thought that the Goddess may be an Indian prince in disguise? A sadomasochist policeman who dons a red dress attracted an anonymous teenage girl, and provoked two hooligans who were sniffing drugs in a hotel room.

Who are the willing parties in this game of police and thieves?

Let us tell you this bizarre urban tale behind closed doors…

Part of Blanc Space: New Play Season 2009 － The birth of a new and exciting Mandarin theatre with 3 new playwrights and 3 new plays. After an 18-month long incubation, the first batch of scripts under The Playwright Series is ready to be staged!

Starring:

Loo Zihan 罗子涵
Mindee Ong 王欣
Doreen Toh 卓桂枝
Neo Haibin 梁海彬
Toh Wee Peng 卓玮平

Performance Details:

6-9 August 2009
8 p.m. (Thur - Sun), 3 p.m. (Sat - Sun)

1 hr 30 mins
Free Seating
$28 (standard)

http://www.gatecrash.com.sg/?page=event_detail&actionForm=detail&eventID=590

2009-07-11T20:33:00.001+08:00

Please Adopt Kittens. They are cute.

2009-06-28T02:39:00.000+08:00

Nick at Vivocity

2009-06-28T02:35:00.002+08:00

SGD 12 approximately to jay-walk in Taipei

about SGD8 cheaper than back here

2009-06-27T03:15:00.002+08:00

Sorry I was just a passer-by

在我尚未把號碼遺忘前，這些淡淡的記憶一定會

深深的刻在腦裏，等著下次見面再把那沉於腦海

的一切，撈上岸。

如果這十個號碼是音符，那音樂一定很好聽。

如果過去的十天是一首詩，

那一定是此生寫過最完美的其中一首。

2009-06-18T02:34:00.002+08:00

Taiwan is nothing like Singapore

2009-06-12T17:40:00.001+08:00

手握著自己的洗碗劑是爽的。

2009-06-06T04:25:00.002+08:00

偉傑。愛上你也許就是唯一的致命傷。

Motherland: 2010

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collage

for LIV

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the twenty-one awaits me

35mm, 2009

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忘我。

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Seen the movie trailer?

Check out this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2012_doomsday_prediction

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渺小的人與大自然 | We are so small.

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第八。

浮雲有一天也會有安頓之所，

化成大雨降落在回不去的街。

變，你坦率地說，是唯一的不變。

請你救我。把我搖醒，讓我明白，

這可能真的真的只是，

無謂的牽強，

完整的分裂，

徹底的自溺。

第九。

你似乎已變了樣。

一直在我眼裏那畫面，消失無跡。

雖然陌生，代替后卻帶給我

一樣熟悉的

溫暖與滿足。

我今天體會了這個字：割捨。

我也因勇氣，而發出了在你面前

第一個真正的笑容。

第十。

突然睜開眼，發現自己在海底。

感覺溼溼的，但是自由無比。

海水折射陽光而綻放彩虹。

但是我是魚依然還是想游上海面，呼吸。

但是每次以爲已經着面，

卻發現自己又沉向海底。

後來終于發現，原來海面以上還是海。

這個自製的夢幻世界，

即是讓自己忐忑不安的

龐大海洋，

一個把自己困著，

怎麽樣也逃不脫的陷阱。

我沒辦法放棄那絢麗的夢幻美景，

也無法回到我因該回去的世界。

魚啊魚，最憐惜是在海里淹不死。

可是我不像魚。我忘不掉。

第十一。

若我要做你一半

怎么可以这般

若你另有某一半

我都可以反叛
若爱你是我宗教

天都不要去管

但自我点我一半

不须你喜欢

(不可以交换)

完。

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rice. 飯。

Thanks Mommy and Rui Qi!

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Thank you both for the butterfly!

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第六。

輕輕的微風打在我臉上，

原來在同一個地方

冬天和夏天是可以共存的。

我和你之間雖然只有狹小的空間，

可是被纏繞著的我們，

卻被比天空，大海和沙漠

更可怕的無言沉寂，

隔離著。

夢醒時，發現也許

現實並無法像渴望中

的無比美。

第七。

我猜。我猜。我猜猜猜。

生活跟娛樂比起來

真的有落差。

踏實的活著完全不好笑。

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第三。

如果每個人都有

100种生活

那我不是得付出多

一百倍的努力？

坦然承受可能

超過一百倍的失望

與無奈？

我還是想帶你逃，

但是你讓你自己跟我走嗎？

第四。

沿著海岸綫走時，

月光倒映海面。

其實世外是還有人間的，

人間也不應該需要希望。

流星划過天空，

可以許願，可以以爲。

但是星星燃燒成爲灰燼，

就為讓人們可以有一個

虛空的妄想，

之後依舊化爲廢石，值得嗎？

繞著世界，目睹廝殺摧殘，

一個圈后重返起點，

發現月亮依然留在彼岸，

不泄不故，

依然燦爛。

第五。

我們之間

到底有幾個空白格？

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I'm currently working as multimedia artist for this show called LIV.

Come support la. It's part of this year's Singapore Arts Festival.

Can see more details here:

http://www.singaporeartsfest.com/event/view/name/full_frontal/

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Pink Dot

did some street photog as publicity for this event

More pictures HERE.

OFFICIAL WEBSITE.